He's gone and we all lived through it :( barely...

Monday Kevin left for Korea and it was pretty much a bad day all the way around... Titus didn't show much emotion all day... Levi cried all day and said he wished daddy could just be a cop here and not ever have to go away again :( and Tater didn't have a clue and says daddy's gone and I say yeah he's gone and he says OTAY ... On the way home from the air port was a pretty quiet ride, just daddy and me. We got to talking about how I could try to pass the time by making goals for myself and sticking with them. So I have been thinking lately about what my goals would be for while he is gone and this is what I have come up with: Lose 100 lbs, exercise daily, be a better mommy to our boys, write letters to Kevin since I know he loves getting hand written stuff, and last but not least learn to LOVE myself INSIDE and OUT!!! There I said it I have had an issue with loving and liking myself my whole life and I am so tired of feeling the way I do about me...work in progress. I am so thankful I have my parents here to help me through this time, not just emotionally but also physically. I went to the eye Dr. today and he of course says he can get me into the right contacts but its gonna take time... and if I weren't here with mom and dad we would have had to hire someone to take care of me, bc I can't drive as of right now and I can't read my boys school papers, I turn the stove on low when I mean to put it on high, I almost put BBQ sauce in my coffee this morning lol (you can laugh here if you feel the need) just a few things to help you understand why I MUST be here !!! I love my parents and have a wonderful relationship with both of them, I couldn't always say that and that makes me so very happy to be able to count on them !!! I know the Lord knew who to put into my path to help me find my way back to Him, because he knew all along I had this disease and would soon be living without Kevin again, and would need to have good relationship with my parents and for that I am so thankful for the Lords leading. I am also thankful for Bro Stewart of Watertown Baptist Temple God used him in great ways to work in my life and my heart. Anyway... I weigh in in the morning and I didn't lose ANY last week so I am praying I lose this week I will be very...very... upset if I don't lose :( .

Monday starts our year apart

We are all settled in here at mom and dads and I am ready to get this year over with... The boys and I have joined Northwest Baptist Church (my daddy's church). I have started the boys both in David Brewer Elementary school, they love their new school!! Titus and Levi also started in Master Clubs at our church here in Leavenworth and they will both be baptized on Sunday by their Papa, they are so excited about that. I have started in weight watchers and exercising and have lost 7lbs so far its been pretty easy except I LOVE going out to eat... I have already found an eye Dr. here and have an appointment on Thursday to get fitted for my third set of contacts these worked in the beginning but aren't doing the trick any more... Charley is settling in very nicely here at mom and dads he loves playing with Beemer, Sadie has become a mommy since we got here so she is not impressed with Charley at all. OH BTW we are getting one of Sadie's puppies of course I picked a GIRL since I am so out numbered around my house.... her name is Lucy such a sweet little girl !!!! more later Y'all

Packing ...

Wow the time has come for us to start packing up to get out of NY for a whole year !!! I think it will be an interesting year I hope I can stay busy enough that I do not get to depressed about Kev being gone I am NOT looking forward to him leaving and then coming home that night ALONE !!! So I started packing and we rented a storage unit and have been filling it up the last few days it is kinda small but Kevin said we can make it fit in there !! I have packed up and moved 3 times in about a 2 year time frame !!! CRAZY CRAZY But it keeps the clutter down and that is a plus for me LOL

Let It ****SNOW****

Oh my goodness when I got up this morning I looked out the door and I have never seen so much snow in my whole life it is sooooooo pretty !!! I love it I am just REALLY glad I do not have to get out in it !!!! I do think we are all going to go out there later and take some pictures !! And there is more coming !!! HEHE I am glad kevin is the one that has to go shovel I would pass out if I had to do it !! Have a wonderful day ALL

The last day of work and school

Today is the last day of work for Kevin he is supposed to get out early we will see about that if he does we will be going to get Titus from school so he does not have to ride the bus he will be glad about that over the next 2 weeks we will be doing NOTHING I wish we could go home for Christmas but that is not happening I do not know where we would go if we did go HOME anyway!! We will just have to figure that out another time !! So for Christmas day we will take our time let the boys open their gifts then I think we are going to stacys house for Christmas dinner that will be nice we never get to spend time with them !! Have a wonderful Christmas if I do not get on here again before then!!

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OK so yesterday we went to church and I got to sing for the first time in over a year !! It was nice to be able to sing I thought i might not be able to any more because it had been so long !!! Then we went to our Battalion Christmas party they had a chili cook off and a dessert cook off I did not like ANY of the chili but whatever they also had 2 big bounce around things for the kids Titus and Levi LOVED it !! Then Santa came in and they all got pictures with him it was kinda funny to see Santa holding all three boys at one time !! Today i am taking the boys to the Dr Caleb is very sick with a bad cough and runny nose and Levi has been coughing too, they are seeing the same Dr but there is 2 hours between the times !! UGH that kinda stinks !! Only one week til Kevin has 2 weeks off and Titus too I am so excited for that time just our family. Kevin is leaving in 8 weeks for iraq, I am getting more and more sad and nerves the closer it gets. I can not imagine watching him get in the bus and leaving me and the boys standing there alone. Kinda like the pictures and videos they have of it always make me cry and I don't even know them. Now it is gonna be ME, US, My babies are the ones missing daddy, I can not even imagine not having my husband and help meet for a whole year. Kevin says "we will be stronger and more in love for it" I am not worried about us I know we were meant to be together and I could not live without Kevin but I am so worried about the boys. I just do not want them to resent us for this later, you know him being gone all the time and moving around all the time" ARMY life" all that. I don't know maybe I am over thinking it but it is just how I feel and am thinking !! Well that is all for now I guess I just kinda need to vent and I know the only people reading this is family so I really wanted all of you to know that is how I have been feeling lately!!

WOW Kevin finally got it!!!

Ok so last night before they released the guys Kevin was call out along with 3 other guys and was given his first promotion he is an E-4 now !!! We are so happy and thankful for this we have been praying for it for a along time !!! He said about 50 guys came by and punched his chest LOL I guess that is their way to say congrats !!