He's gone and we all lived through it :( barely...

Monday Kevin left for Korea and it was pretty much a bad day all the way around... Titus didn't show much emotion all day... Levi cried all day and said he wished daddy could just be a cop here and not ever have to go away again :( and Tater didn't have a clue and says daddy's gone and I say yeah he's gone and he says OTAY ... On the way home from the air port was a pretty quiet ride, just daddy and me. We got to talking about how I could try to pass the time by making goals for myself and sticking with them. So I have been thinking lately about what my goals would be for while he is gone and this is what I have come up with: Lose 100 lbs, exercise daily, be a better mommy to our boys, write letters to Kevin since I know he loves getting hand written stuff, and last but not least learn to LOVE myself INSIDE and OUT!!! There I said it I have had an issue with loving and liking myself my whole life and I am so tired of feeling the way I do about me...work in progress. I am so thankful I have my parents here to help me through this time, not just emotionally but also physically. I went to the eye Dr. today and he of course says he can get me into the right contacts but its gonna take time... and if I weren't here with mom and dad we would have had to hire someone to take care of me, bc I can't drive as of right now and I can't read my boys school papers, I turn the stove on low when I mean to put it on high, I almost put BBQ sauce in my coffee this morning lol (you can laugh here if you feel the need) just a few things to help you understand why I MUST be here !!! I love my parents and have a wonderful relationship with both of them, I couldn't always say that and that makes me so very happy to be able to count on them !!! I know the Lord knew who to put into my path to help me find my way back to Him, because he knew all along I had this disease and would soon be living without Kevin again, and would need to have good relationship with my parents and for that I am so thankful for the Lords leading. I am also thankful for Bro Stewart of Watertown Baptist Temple God used him in great ways to work in my life and my heart. Anyway... I weigh in in the morning and I didn't lose ANY last week so I am praying I lose this week I will be very...very... upset if I don't lose :( .

Monday starts our year apart

We are all settled in here at mom and dads and I am ready to get this year over with... The boys and I have joined Northwest Baptist Church (my daddy's church). I have started the boys both in David Brewer Elementary school, they love their new school!! Titus and Levi also started in Master Clubs at our church here in Leavenworth and they will both be baptized on Sunday by their Papa, they are so excited about that. I have started in weight watchers and exercising and have lost 7lbs so far its been pretty easy except I LOVE going out to eat... I have already found an eye Dr. here and have an appointment on Thursday to get fitted for my third set of contacts these worked in the beginning but aren't doing the trick any more... Charley is settling in very nicely here at mom and dads he loves playing with Beemer, Sadie has become a mommy since we got here so she is not impressed with Charley at all. OH BTW we are getting one of Sadie's puppies of course I picked a GIRL since I am so out numbered around my house.... her name is Lucy such a sweet little girl !!!! more later Y'all